:: Saturday, September 20, 2003 ::

I hate leaving this blog on a "sad" note, so I figured now is as good of a time as any to post. Well wouldn't ya know it, it's past 5 am. Ah well. Tonight/today has rocked, ryan, ryan, nate, and nathan are over right now. We've played BattleField 1942 on lan, F-Zero GX, DDR, and I now have literally hundreds of MAME ROMs on my PC thanks to ryan :D SEXY REACTION! I think True Love and some wacky game pr0n was thrown in there for good measure. Things have settled down for the evening though, it's just myself and the glow of my monitor and keyboard. Very relaxing. Is it odd to thrive in the dark, resting one's eyes only on that which suits them, while everything else melts away? Maybe that's why I enjoy the dark, less things to conciously worry about. The subconcious is brought to the surface. Or maybe it's just dark.

Should James get some sleep? I guess I need to wake up eventually to play more games geez. Well I guess I'll do my HW left over from wednesday thanks to misses hurricane, and then host keopardy and help with trivia what what. I'm kinda tired I guess, here's to sleep!

Oh, and everybody posting sad stuff in their blogs... I don't know how theraputic you find it to post things like that on your blogs, mostly towards yourselves, but it shows. As an outsider/casual friend I usually don't have a fucking clue what you are talking about. If you have a problem get it out in the open, or keep it to yourself or whoever needs to know. In the middle is just torment for people on both sides of the fence. This might sound sort of harsh, but there's nothing that evil and horrible going on in anybody's life right now, I can rest fairly assured in this fact. Unless they are magicians and can cover something huge from me. In which case what does my opinion matter anyways if they feel so inclined to hide it from me? I often come off as a teenager who doesn't care, but it's more from the perspective of stepping away from the situation and analyzing it, instead of getting caught in a flurry of unneccessary emotions and fluster. I care, but perhaps not in the horribly sympathetic way you are looking for me to be. If it's genuine I will act like it. Most of the time friends have let me down in proving that what they claimed to be big was really big. They're just learning. We all have to hurt a little to learn. Or something.

Megan is somewhere in NY right now...yaya. I can't complain about not seeing her, since I spent all of thursday and most of friday with her thanks to the retarded cancellation of school. She'll enjoy the wedding. Or she'll enjoy the memories of the wedding 20 years from now. Ah well I'll see her what, tuesday? wednesday? Here's to hoping. Blaggardy la ta tee ta bloop!

:: Floydthebarber 9/20/2003 05:19:00 AM [+] ::
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