:: Sunday, September 14, 2003 ::

Does James have time for a job? If he makes time for a job, he'll have to sacrifice a lot, timewise and mentally. Weekends are out of the question; I am doing something EVERY weekend, and what little free time I do have is sporatic and at weird intervals. I could pull off 2-3 hours a few weekdays a week. I guess. Everybody has felt like this before, or will. That stupid feeling of all the childhood things being gone and facing the facts that parents will make you be more self-supportive. I dunno about Philmont. I want to go, but is it really worth it? The trip is still vividly impressed in my mind, I would only go again to sort of relive the awesome experience. I guess this would be my last opportunity to go as a kid though. Next time I'd be 18. Does anybody know how frustrating this is? There are so many places in the world I haven't been, that all my friends have been to, and flaunt that in my face either inadvertantly or directly nearly daily, and I'm constantly fighting off the urge to yell back and try to make them understand how their sad stories don't hold shit compared to me. So I have two choices- a) get a job and pay for philmont or b) get a job and pay for other things. Does it sound bad that I would opt for option b right now? That's the question I am struggling with, and have little time to struggle over. Dad is sending out some fat checks tomorrow. I hate doing things first in my group of friends. I'll work. But what for...

:: Floydthebarber 9/14/2003 12:33:00 PM [+] ::
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