:: Friday, July 18, 2003 ::

Its currently 5:10 in the morning, I must be suffering from a pretty bad stint of insomnia. Maybe I'm worrying about Megan too much. Well maybe not too much, just worrying in general. I wish I had something interesting to post or say, but I'm hungry and not tired my god what is wrong with me right now. I'm gonna be worthless tomorrow then again tomorrow or today or whatever the fuck will be worthless since I won't see any friends and the internet is being mostly shit. Bitch Bitch Bitch. I miss being in megan's arms...feeling her breath against my cheek... instead i'm sitting her on a rock hard solid wooden dining room chair staring at a low radiation monitor wondering what to do with my life. I could sure use that ElumiX keyboard to ease the eyestrain. Expect me to stay up this late all night after the 23rd just to stare at and use my keyboard. Which I'm pretty sure I'm getting....hehe. I have that horrible song Floyd The Barber by Nirvana in my head, but I'm too lazy to load it into winamp. How sad is that? ack wow I just rubbed my eyes for the first time tonight, maybe I can sleep in agony over megan now! I bet tommy will wake me up tomorrow before noon, the jerk. Also I haven't showered since before I went skating with Megan and everybody, so that's about 40 hours ago. I probably won't shower or shave today either because I don't have to and I'm lazy as hell. Why am i proclaiming this on the internet? BECAUSE I CAN AND AI-AI WILL. If I keep making video game references in my normal speech, it'll get me beat up one day I swear. Everybody is always saying one day i'll get beaten up for what I say. It hasn't happened. When it does I'll shut up how's that for a deal? I could go listen to The Doors on vinyl upstairs, that'd make me sleepy I bet. So would staring at my bebop wallscroll or the black light reflecting off my CDs on my celing. Although it won't be reflecting for long. Its stupid how in a few minutes i'd normally be getting up for school. There's only like 3 weeks of vacation left, how sad is that? I better live it up party hard 420 no tomorrow knock over trash cans wut wut.

This is fucking rediculous. 5:20. I beat everybody! Hooray I am such a nerd! I could be an even bigger nerd and not sleep at all, I could go for a record of being online... let's see right now the counter is literally at about 9 hours. My god. Not to mention I was on for about 2 hours before that. No no, I'm not addicted! I'm just seizing the opportunity, I can quit at anytime. Just give me something more interesting to do and I'm all for it. hah oh whoops I have those 2 1/2 books to read before going back to school. I should take two days out of my time and knock those out. Yeah. If anybody wants to go nerd and talk Lord of the Flies with me, please do I loved that book to death and can't wait to pwnz0r all the stupid kids at my school in discussion about it. "OH THIS BOOK IS ABOUT KIDS LERNING TO LIVE BY DEMSELFS AND HOW HUMANS ARE BAD INSIDE LIKE FLIES" I can see the retardedness now. Good thing I got an awesome casebook edition. I think Casebook means "kick ass" but it also includes interviews and essays on the book to help me understand or see things in a different angle. I'm a little into Anthem, and the whole "we" thing is getting annoying but whatever. Then siddhartha. that'll take one night. then the Apology. that'll take one hour. Rock! Holy shit, my brother Alex just woke up to go to school, this is indeed a freaky night. I shall leave you all with more really fucked up lyrics!

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not want
He makes me down to lie
Through pastures green He leadeth me the silent waters by.
With bright knives He releaseth my soul.
He maketh me to hang on hooks in high places.
He converteth me to lamb cutlets,
For lo, He hath great power, and great hunger.
When cometh the day we lowly ones,
Through quiet reflection, and great dedication
Master the art of karate,
Lo, we shall rise up,
And then we'll make the bugger's eyes water.

:: Floydthebarber 7/18/2003 05:33:00 AM [+] ::
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