:: Saturday, June 14, 2003 ::

Well, my mom was nice enough to have alex shipped off to grandma's tonight, so I could go over to Jen's to spend time with Megan and everybody else. You know your girlfriend is cool when she's excited you burned her some videogame soundtracks. We watched part of Princess Mononoke, and all of UHF. Played some pool, talked, etc... a fun time for the most part. Megan seemed to notice something was bothering me, and she was right. Her shyness isn't just hard on her, it's hard on me too. It's funny how simple things like kissing, which was simple and beautiful 24 hours before becomes really hard for her when we're around friends, I don't really get it. I know she doesn't do it on purpose, but it still sort of makes me shake my head and think to myself, "hey, she's still really shy about this stuff for some reason, you just gotta live with it". There doesn't seem to be a lot I can do to help it either, she has to want that kind of stuff I'm completely open that's the most i'll ever do since I'll never try to force anything on her, like the kisses she didn't want tonight. Understanding feelings I've never had is very difficult for me. I'm not angry at her, I've never been angry at her really. More of a kick back to two months ago when I felt the same way. She's come a helluva long way from that time though at least I can tell myself that. I need to listen to some uplifting music, my mood is a bit shaky right now let's try to swing it one way.

:: Floydthebarber 6/14/2003 11:42:00 PM [+] ::
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