:: Tuesday, September 17, 2002 ::

So then, since it appears that a few sad blokes actually read this thing it only feels right to expose them to great epiphanies from the word of James!

Let's start with the present now, shall we? I take it that sense you have in fact taken the initiative in reading this blog that you know what a geeky, anti-social person i really am. Generally if i can avoid people i will, indulging in more enlightening things such as books, schoolwork, meditation, and of course video games and online ]-[@><0Ring. So what has the illustrious James been up to? not too damn much, i'm afraid. And it's starting to frustrate me too. Why is it that when our lives are chaotic and eventful we yearn for peace and regularity, but when it's all quiet and normal we seek flair and something different? It reminds me how odd it is that when it's winter we try to be warm and in the summer we try to be cold. It's all a very confusing matter. One thing did happen today though which has got my anger flaring...

As groggy and unpleasant of a person I am before 8 or 9 every morning, it's perfectly understandable that after my routine bus ride to school today, my CD wallet was left behind in the seat. I realized the horror of the situation about 5 minutes later after the bus had left and all hope was lost. Or was it? My concious was praying that some reputable bloke would find my CDs, use their god-givin concience, and return my lovely CDs to the bus driver to give to me. Hell, they could have just left them in the seat and I would have found them when I got on in the afternoon. So i spend the entire day clinging to this shred of hope that some super nice guy would find my precious cargo and it would be returned to me safely. Also, who the hell would want my CDs anyways? The case was full of Led Zeppelin, Pink Floyd, Everclear, Barenaked Ladies, lots of video game music, some Weird Al, and tons of other miscellaneous stuff. Unless somebody is super cool and enjoys those sorts of music, they wouldn't want the case anyways! And if in fact that super cool guy did find the CDs, the name "super cool" implies they would have the integrety to return them. Apparently not so. The heartless bastard, wherever he or she is, took the CDs with nary a whisper...just walked up and off with them. Not only does this severly piss me off, it gives me a chance to reflect in pity and anger at society in general. What type of rotton, immature children are we bringing up these days? Anybody with one iota of maturity or the likes would return them to their rightful owner, certainly not taking them for themselves. I know that this world is all about Me Me Me it seems, but it hurts when the disgusting values of such big city people and the like hit home in quiet little Cary North Carolina. Sure i can replace the CDs, eventually. The whole ordeal leaves me very frustrated and even more untrusting with people than 12 hours ago, and further reinstates my theory that most people suck in general and don't deserve to be spoken to or have eye contact with or anything. Fools like me come in last I guess...

Shall we move onto the subject of girls? Ah yes, the beautiful gems of society which guys clamor after usually because of the girl's looks. Don't get me wrong, it's not that i don't like girls. They're awesome for friends, what with their sound advice and nice smelling hair and comforting voices, but that's about it. Anything beyond a friendship is mostly damaging to me, seeping money from my pocket and leaving me high and dry when it's all said and done. Why bother? Whenever love is potentially around the corner the whole idea unravels into shambles...a waste of time leaving you heartbroken. Yeah, it'd be nice to find my soulmate and whatnot at Cary High, but what's the fun in that? I hate to be the pessimist, but we'd both go our separate ways most likely in 4 years and it'd leave us both heartbroken. Listen to me, i'm thinking four years ahead for Christ's sake! Sill though, it's true. I need to concentrate of building my own personality and character first before i try starting any relationships with a girl or anything. I have to keep reminding myself i'm still only 15, no matter how mature I act or what I say or do.

Video Games. Yes yes, still the staple of entertainment and escape in this teenager's life. Who cares what i do or play? That's right. moving on.

Okay, enough writing for today. Shout out to christina for reading this blog. hope our friendship is never trashed. Excuse me while I retire to go read and play video games and soccer and sleep and whatever else is on my agenda. lates. And keep pimpin.

:: Floydthebarber 9/17/2002 04:42:00 PM [+] ::
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